Believe it or not, I do my best not to bother people with how I feel or the troubles of my life unless they have a trust I only reserve for those who are my true friends. Or, I can't take it anymore and vent on my blog...and sometimes my FB page when yelling to the world is more beneficial than beating my head on the wall ;)
I don't like to put my business out there for the world to see and all this wedding planning has assisted in turning my own little portion of the world chaotic so I've bent my rules a bit ;) I have a feeling that some people might think my fiance and I are either putting too much into the wedding/reception or are trying too hard for perfection. Maybe they're right. The question is, do we care? My fiance is even more secretive about his feelings and emotions than I; never caving under the pressures of life to publicly vent, so I don't think everyone truly knows what our marriage and wedding means to us and why we've done all that we can to ensure our dream comes true.
Essentially, this is a dream. A dream come true. A dream that we both thought would always remain as such. All of my previous relationships were long-term and long-distance; some better than others. And my fiance had been in one long-term relationship and a few here and there. We never found that true connection. That connection that feels right, comfortable, natural, and you know it's safe to be you. And now we have. We were both surprised how similar we are! We'd only known each other about a year at college and grew into the people we are today while living timezones apart and here we are, eerily similar and contentedly happy.
But, for me, it's not only I've found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. It's deeper than that. On November 10, my dad will hold me in him arms for the first time in 31 years. I will hear his voice, know his laughter, and hear him say my name for the first time in 31 years. I never thought the day would come when I would know the other half of my being, the other half of who I am. Having my family together, celebrating a love for a lifetime, I can see no better occasion for everything to be picture perfect and just the way we dreamed than our wedding when so many of our dreams are coming true.
I just want to thank, truly thank, those of you who were, are, continue to be supportive through all this. Who understood the demands our planning placed not only on us, but our family and guests. Those who stood strong when things were rough, and those who know nothing but love, support, and compassion I cannot thank you enough! Thank you for being a part of our dreams come true!