Saturday, September 27, 2008

A task in futility

I'm not a quitter, so I'm not going to quit trying to blog. But has anyone else noticed how a lot of blogs are either never read or just passed over. What's the point if no one seems to read them? I'm going to keep trying to blog...we'll see what comes of it. Any thoughts on this? Anyone?

Friday, September 19, 2008

A leap of faith...or good luck

As I'm sure many of you know, there is a new show on called The Locator. Which naturally got me thinking of trying to find my dad again. I know finding someone is expensive that's why I've never tried it myself. Not only am I a poor teacher, but I've been afraid of tracking the wrong person. I've never met my dad and have always wondered what he was like. Obviously he's a man of questionable character because he left us. He left my mom a few months after my sis and I were born (we're twins). Anyways, back to the show. I entered a contest and the prize is Troy tries to track down their loved one. Do I think I'll win? No. But I'm I'll still hold out hope. The winner will be contacted late Nov. This is my dad feeding us when we were 3 months old. From what I've been told, he left a short time after that. I wonder if he ever thinks of us or regrets leaving us? What if he's forgotten all about us?

Saturday, September 13, 2008

I'm I picked out my wedding dress...

Well, not exactly "the dress" but the style. Granted I'm no closer to being married than I was 8 years ago, but still...I can plan! :D Anyways, I was set on a medieval style dress, but have now decided that I want Grecian. It's perfect for me! Granted I'm a bit more pudgy than I used to be, but a little exercise and I'll be my lovely non-pregnant looking self in no time. Of course, I have plenty of time to work on that seeing as how I'm not getting married any time soon! LoL I'm not one of those gals that freak out cause they're not married yet...but I will admit it kind of sucks. Based on the way I mapped out my life when I was 15, I'm at least 3 years behind! ;) And I'm sure my biological clock went off at least twice. I am, however, a firm believer in the philosophy of what will be will be in it's due time. But that doesn't mean I can't wish things would speed up a bit ;) Anways, Grecian dress...beautiful.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

What was once stolen...

I just HAD to share this with's just incredible! Okay. Three years ago, my mom bought this concrete bench from K-mart and probably paid more for it than she should have. She loved it! Well, soon after, H. Katrina came through. Well, that bench did not move during the storm...the house did, but not the bench lol Once the roads were cleared we were allowed to come back to our homes...or what was left of them. And there, for the whole world to see, was OUR bench. We had to leave it on our property because there was no way to bring it to where I was living at the time. We go back a week later and some @$$ had stolen it. Fast forward 3 years. My bf started clearing my moms lot this week because the city started complaining about all the abandoned lots and overgrowth. We're guessing someone noticed him cleaning up and when he went to the lot today to do some more work, THERE IT WAS! I couldn't believe it! After 3 years what could have possibly possessed some to return what they had stolen from us?! ...Well, besides spending all of eternity in hell for thievery or being reincarnated into the worst, grossest, nastiest thing possible! No matter the reason my mom is thrilled to have it back...and me too cause now she can stop complaining about not being able to find one she likes ;)

Monday, September 8, 2008

My fortune

I now know it's official...the world is web 2.0. We ate at a Chinese buffett Saturday and this is my "fortune":

On a side note, I wonder why the slips in fortune cookies have nothing to do with fortunes anymore.

A "stuffy" nose

Ahh...the joys of being sick.

How is it, when you get a head cold and your nose is so stuffed up, you can't breath to save your life (literally). BUT at that same time, you can have a runny nose, but still be too stuffed up to sniffle.


Thursday, September 4, 2008

What is Anxiety Panic Disorder?

At 28 years old, I never thought I would have to deal with mental illness, but my boyfriend has been suffering from Aniexty Panic Disorder for a year now. Many of his friends either turned away from him or just thinks he needs to get over it, like it's a habit you can break. I've decided to post some facts I've found online here for those of you who randomly come across my website.

Here's what I found...

"In any given year, about 1/3 of American adults have at least one panic attack; most of these adults never develop repeated panic attacks. This startling data means that anxiety attacks and panic attacks are the most common emotional disorders and are more common than bipolar disorder, OCD schizophrenia, PTSD, ADHD, phobias, alcohol abuse or depression. Anxiety and panic attacks also has the lowest rates - about 21% - for seeking help and finding it. Sadly these numbers are on the rise every day."

"About 7.2% of all adults, or 1 in 15, have a panic disorder which is a primary part of their disorder, (NIH, 1993). After a few months of panic, about 10% of people become housebound and unable to leave home alone. After a few years, about 30% of panic sufferers have a loss of job, pay or job responsibilities. Some 17% are at risk for alcoholism and about 40% risk a chronic depression as life opportunities are cut off. A majority have marital problems and much reduced travel and social life. The economic cost has been estimated at about $2600/year in misdirected treatment, and about $12,000 a year in lowered job earnings. For most, panic closes life off like a prison."

Symptoms: (
raging heartbeat
difficulty breathing, feeling as though you 'can't get enough air'
terror that is almost paralyzing
dizziness, lightheadedness or nausea
trembling, sweating, shaking
choking, chest pains
hot flashes, or sudden chills
tingling in fingers or toes ('pins and needles')
fear that you're going to go crazy or are about to die

"According to the American Psychological Association the symptoms of a panic attack commonly last approximately thirty minutes. However, panic attacks can be as short as 15 minutes, while sometimes panic attacks may form a cyclic series of episodes, lasting for an extended period, sometimes hours."

Monday, September 1, 2008

Gustav has arrived

It's currently 11:07am and I'm so bored! But, I can't's better than being freaked out ;) Mom and I are doing fine. The electricity hasn't gone out, we still have cable and Internet (duh), and we're pretty comfortable. It's very windy out so it's hard to tell exactly how hard it's raining, but from my guesstamate, it's not raining too hard. There's a few people driving around...I'm content to sit in my apt. My wonderful neighbor came over late last night to put a board on my bedroom window so with that and my cinderblock walls, we can hardly tell there's a hurricane outside my door :) Our area is very blessed; our building hasn't sustained any damage yet, no flooding in our parking lot, and our utilities are fine. When Katrina came through, we didn't have electricity in Pike County so we didn't know what was happening on the coast for 3 days. The fact we can watch the news is keeping our nerves in check ;)

It's now 9:24pm and we are still doing fine. Mom was a little panicy for a bit, but is not relaxed and watching movies. We ended up hunkered down in the tub during a few tornado warnings. Apparently there were a few close to where I live, but none came our way. Still no flooding here or wind damage to our apt. We never lost electricty, which is good...except for the fact I have nothing good to eat for supper...sigh. I heard another hurricane may be taking the same route to the Coast but I think I'm going to leave this time. It wasn't bad here, but I think we'd be more comfortable at mom's house.

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